The sun will come out... tomorrow...

And today is yesterdays tomorrow... yes, I feel much better today, it was just a matter of shaking myself clean of those dark thoughts, writing it down yesterday really helped to give me perspective and clear view of how blessed I am.

Thanks for your comments friends, they really do help me validate that I am not alone on this earth, but just passing thru, on my way to a much better place in the Kingdom of Heaven where I will be reunited with those who have gone before me and will wait for those following me. What a glorious day that will be!

Our mercies renew every morning and PTL for that, as I think I use them up everyday, sometimes before the day is over. Things have stabilized a lot at home, and every little bit really helps, but living with 3 teens, well 4, if you count DH just is hard, no matter how each and every day actually plays out. Add to that my own moods, needs, wants, desires - met or unmet, and you have a terrific recipe for disaster which thankfully doesn't usually occur. I'm trying to count every blessing and relish every calm moment, and remember to stop and smell the roses :)

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead." Philippians 3:13 NLT

Gray day

Ahhh, the humanity of it all. I disappoint myself, others, and vice versa. Today I'm just sorta blue, not gray or terrible, just sorta down. There are so many things I want to do, to provide for my family, to sustain the world... yet, I fall short every time, or at least it feels like that to me today.

It's like a blanket of disappointment that pervades my life, maybe all our lives, the human quality we all share, eventho we all try, at some level to achieve more than humanly possible.

I guess that's just the way this life goes in our human condition. Its so hard sometimes to look beyond yourself and your 'less than' condition... and I know many have worse situations, and I can only imagine what gets them out of bed, out of the bottle, or out of their own misery.

I have my faith and it helps sustain me daily, and I know it bring great peace to many. I am never disappointed in God's mercy, peace and splendor. I need to lift my eyes to the Father and get out of this funk. He made the heavens and the earth, He numbered every hair on my head, He knows me by name... ahh, I feel better already!


"We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves." ~ 2 Corinthians 4:7, NLT

Appreciation for the vintage

... and no I'm not talking about me :) LOL I got these two terrific old heavy metal "vintage" sewing machines. They aren't just old, but they're ancient :) at least as far as modern machines are concerned.

The one pictured here is vintage 1953, which yes, is older than me :) It has interchangeable cams that change the stitch pattern. The color is fantastic in a love the avocado way, the case is extremely neat, and I hope the beast will even sew.

I also got a not-quite-so-vintage Morse. Boy, that thing is smooth. It has a certain ring to it when I sew... ahh, like the sweet smell of a fantastic memory! Pardon me while I swoon :)

Anyway, off to sew, well later, after I get this thing called work done... more later, maybe :)

"After Noah was 500 years old, he became the father of Shem, Ham and Japheth" Genesis 5:32

God Bless America

Yes, God bless America - and the rest of the world too :) God created it all and has ultimate authority over all of it and all of us.

Big holiday weekend for the USA this weekend, patriotism at its best. Attended two local city festivals with fireworks and lots of good cheer. I'm sure there was an unruly person or two, but overall people were quite genuine, nice and got along.

I got a little uncomfortable for the cause I'm working with, but I knew I'd survive :) I totally get why public speaking is fear #1 for most of us.

"So Christ has really set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don't get tied up again in slavery to the law." ~ Galatians 5:1, NLT

Painful Christianity

Being a Christian can sure sometimes be painful. It's hard to even dream of being close to the perfection of Christ. Making mistakes, letting our flesh control us, seeing the pain in peoples lives, experiencing pain in our own lives, making the same mistakes over and over again. What a learning process this life is.

How do we become better? With Christ, of course :) He died for us, for our sins, for our ever-lasting life. Our mistakes have been pre-paid by his life and death on the cross. I can't even fathom that sometimes. Our pain is nothing in comparison to Him taking on all our sin.

Thank you for that Jesus. Thank you for taking my sin. Thank you for dying for me. Thank you for loving me that much. Help me to live a cleaner life, in ways only you know. Help me be a better example of Christian beliefs and practices. Help others around me see that I am trying. Help others who I've hurt see that I do care and even if misguided in my actions, that I do not ever intend to hurt anyone.

"We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are." Romans 3:22, NLT

What? Is this a bakery?

Yup... you guessed it... rolls and rolls and rolls... HELP! I have too many rolls... I know... I sit all day, then go home and sit all night... and I love love love to eat!!!

I really MUST do something about this... I did make a good step in the right direction today... I brought lunch, so DH doesn't have to bring me fast food... but... I know I need to move my body... but I just can't seem to get motivated.

BUT... a horrific picture my DD took of me on Saturday, that reminds me of the above, is helping motivate me a bit!!! Why is the flesh so weak??? Lord, give me strength, motivation and energy to move my body!!!

"Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak." ~ Mark 14:38, NLT

Connections!

Connections... we all need them, some more than others. I need many and always. I can tend to feel alone on my own private island. I have so many connections, I don't even know if I can make a list of them :) and yet, sometimes I still feel alone.

So it isn't only about the number of connections we have maybe, but the depth, frequency or importance maybe?!?! We ARE complicated creatures - just as our Amazing God made us ALL in His image!


"God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us." 1 Corinthians 12:6, NLT